The ＂selfishness＂ of blind candidates： I hope more blind candidates will enter the college entrance examination room.

　　"You don’t have to pay attention to my score or my hard journey. The score will be constantly refreshed. What you need to pay attention to is what is behind the score — — Why are so few blind people taking the college entrance examination? What levels are they stuck in? "

Blind examinee Angziyu.

　　"It is very difficult to take this road, and it needs the right place and the right time. I can only say that I have made countless choices against the current. If my example can make more blind candidates enter the college entrance examination room, that is the greatest significance of my achievement. "

　　Reporter Wang Jingxue

　　Angziyu is ready for a new journey.

　　This is Monday afternoon, July 27th. In a few hours, his father Ang Guoyin will take him to the airport. At 9 o’clock in the evening, he will fly from Hefei to Kunming alone, meet five other blind friends from different parts of the country and start a week-long trip together.

　　"It’s also for exercise. I’ve been on buses, subways and trains alone, and I haven’t tried airplanes yet. Going to college in the future must be in the field and you must exercise more. " The 19-year-old Hefei boy, whose eyesight is close to complete blindness, said.

　　The week before, he became a hot topic in the news because he scored 635 points in the college entrance examination, which was 120 points higher than the first score of science in Anhui Province. Some netizens lamented: "This is really better than my exam with my eyes closed."

　　After a long and short interview, Angziyu felt, "You don’t have to pay attention to my score or my hard work, the score will be constantly refreshed, and you need to pay attention to what is behind the score — — Why are so few blind people taking the college entrance examination? What levels are they stuck in? "

　　In 2020, 10.71 million candidates signed up for the national college entrance examination, of which only 5 were blind candidates who took the examination in Braille.

　　"It is very difficult to take this road, and it needs the right place and the right time. I can only say that I have made countless choices against the current. If my example can make more blind candidates enter the college entrance examination room, that is the greatest significance of my achievement. " An Ziyu said.

　　A blind child wants to take the general college entrance examination.

　　As teachers, Ang Guoyin and Yu Jinfang know the power of knowledge. They have taught countless students and are familiar with all kinds of business processes in the school, but they are at a loss as to how to get their son to study.

　　Since I was a child, Angziyu knew that she would take the college entrance examination.

　　Father Ang Guoyin is a math teacher in high school, and mother Yu Jinfang is a Chinese teacher in junior high school. After graduating every year, they talk about the results of the students’ senior high school entrance examination and college entrance examination at home.

　　Angziyu still remembers that his father said that they had a class of students, many of whom got more than 600 points and could go to a good university. After listening, he also wants to pass the college entrance examination and have his own future, just like the excellent children in his parents’ mouths.

　　Angzi thought it was a natural thing, but he didn’t know that a child like him was uniformly excluded from this battle of thousands of troops at that time.

　　At the age of 3, Angziyu was diagnosed with congenital retinitis pigmentosa. The doctor said that his little vision would gradually decline, and taking medicine could only delay the speed of blindness.

　　After many years, every summer vacation, Ang Guoyin will take his son to Beijing Tongren Hospital to see his eyes and travel by the way.

　　Great Wall, Forbidden City, Summer Palace, Yuanmingyuan, National Museum and Military Museum … … They went to many places together. "Take the children for fun, see the world, and take a look at the great rivers and mountains of the motherland and the streets and alleys of the capital while he still has some vision."

　　In the dead of night, or on the way to play, the father and son suddenly quieted down. "If you look into our eyes, you will see that our eyes are full of melancholy eyes." Ang Guoyin noticed that his son, little child, was full of worries.

　　"His mother and I thought that no matter how well he reads, as long as he can read, we will try our best to create conditions for him to read." As teachers, Ang Guoyin and Yu Jinfang know the power of knowledge. They have taught countless students and are familiar with the various business processes of the school, but they are extremely at a loss about how their son can go to school. "I don’t know if he can take the college entrance examination, how to enter a higher school in the future, and whether he can have a bowl of rice to eat are all unknown. I always think about this in my heart, I can’t sleep every day, I can only comfort myself, and I will read it until I have no conditions to read it. "

　　Ang Guoyin still remembers the first day of sending Angziyu to kindergarten. As soon as he arrived at class, the class teacher asked him to sign an exemption agreement, promising that if the child had an accident, he could not come to kindergarten. "We feel very uncomfortable in our hearts. We feel that our children are lower than other children on the first day of school, and we are lower than other parents."

　　After that, every time he went to a new school, he had to write such a commitment letter for his son.

　　"After school, you can see the sunshine from Angziyu’s face." Ang Guoyin said that the head teacher of Angziyu Primary School is a very caring teacher. "Maybe at that time, he felt that the teacher treated me like other children, and I didn’t lack anything, so he was very happy and his grades were always in the top three in his class. Teachers and classmates recognized him more and formed a virtuous circle."

　　After graduating from primary school, Angziyu was recommended to attend No.48 Middle School in Hefei with the 13th place in the whole school. This is also the place where Yu Jinfang works. Many teachers in the school are uncles and aunts who watched Angziyu grow up, which makes him better accepted and avoids the problems that many blind children may encounter when studying in regular schools.

　　Looking back at his son’s road to school for more than ten years, from kindergarten to high school, Ang Guoyin felt that every link was not easy. With firm struggle, they were lucky to meet good teachers and people in charge of education who provided help in every link, and finally stumbled over.

　　Including the senior high school entrance examination, the province has no conditions to provide Braille test papers, nor can it let Angziyu take the exam by asking people to read the questions. The education department of Hefei City arranged for Angziyu to participate in the recruitment of Qingdao Blind School to continue his studies.

　　It was the first time that Angziyu left her parents. Ang Guoyin clearly remembers his feelings when he sent his son to Qingdao and returned to Hefei by train. He was sitting in his seat, thinking about it, and the more he thought about it, the more sad he was, and he almost cried. "I’m particularly uneasy, especially uncomfortable. What’s the matter? Children who are as good as him or even worse than him can stay with their parents and receive education in a good high school. Why should my children stay away from home and study in a strange place? Why? "

　　Looking back now, he said that the fragility at that time was also because his wife was not around. "If his mother were here, I might be stronger."

　　Material for reading.

　　When other children go to physical education class or take exams, Angziyu will go over what the teacher said from beginning to end, or find a problem that everyone can’t do, and slowly ponder.

　　When I grew up, I heard that I might not be able to take the college entrance examination. Angziyu was confused. "Finally, I decided to stick to my studies. My parents said that even if I can’t take the college entrance examination, I should study, and learning knowledge is the first priority."

　　From elementary school to high school, Angziyu is an excellent student in her class. This achievement is hard-won, although his own explanation is: "Ordinary people want to do too much and face too many temptations, and I have neither time nor many choices because of my eyesight. For example, I can’t play computer games."

　　Before he came into contact with Braille, Angziyu learned by listening and memorizing, which required him to concentrate on every minute during class, and then spend several times as much time as other students after class to recall the contents of the class.

　　At the beginning, Angziyu’s eyesight could be written in big characters. Angguoyin and Yu Jinfang typed all his textbooks into the computer word by word, increased the font size and printed them out. A piece of A4 paper could not print 100 words.

　　"But we are very happy in this process, because children are willing to learn, and they have excellent results in every exam." An Guoyin said.

　　After the third grade of primary school, Angziyu’s eyesight declined seriously, and he gradually could not use big-character books. Together with his parents, he found a new way — — Listen to the book with the point reading machine, import all the textbooks into the point reading machine, and listen from beginning to end, "so that you can preview and review." Angziyu said, "We just keep encountering problems and then keep trying to solve them."

　　He admits that he has psychological imbalance. When I was in elementary school, I found that other students could finish their homework in class and go out to play after school, but he had to carry his homework home, and his parents read the questions. He dictated the answers and was busy until 9 pm. There is also a quiz in class. When other students are busy writing, he has nothing to do but sit for the whole class. "My mother said that if you want to take the college entrance examination, you have to pay three times more time than others."

　　Ang Guoyin asked his son, what were you thinking when other children went to physical education class or took exams? Angziyu replied that he would go through what the teacher said from beginning to end, or find a difficult problem that everyone could not do and ponder it slowly. "I feel that my child is really a piece of reading material."

　　In 2014, Ang Zi Yu was in the second day of junior high school. The doctor pointed out that he should hurry to learn Braille. Ang Guoyin found the only teacher who knew Braille in Anhui Special Education School at that time to teach Ang Zi Yu Braille.

　　This summer, Li Jinsheng, a 46-year-old blind man from Henan Province, walked into the college entrance examination room with the beating of gongs and drums by blind friends, becoming the first blind candidate in China to take the general college entrance examination with Braille papers, which aroused public concern. It was also at this time that many people knew that it had been difficult for blind people to take the college entrance examination before.

　　Although China’s Law on the Protection of Disabled Persons, which was revised in 2008, clearly stipulates that all kinds of entrance examinations held by the state should be provided with Braille test papers and electronic test papers for the blind or assisted by special staff, in practice, blind people who apply for the college entrance examination are often rejected on the grounds of "no precedent" and "ordinary schools are unable to train blind students".

　　There are more than 17 million blind people in China, accounting for 18% of the world’s blind people. For a long time, this group can only take the way of "single recruitment and single examination" if they want to receive higher education. Several universities that recruit blind people make separate examinations, which are usually not difficult to pass, but candidates can choose a single major with two main directions: acupuncture, massage and music.

　　"Angziyu is very uninterested in these two majors." Ang Guoyin said that Li Jinsheng’s participation in the 2014 college entrance examination gave them hope, and they also learned that the Ministry of Education proposed for the first time in the annual enrollment work document to facilitate the blind to take the unified examination. "My child’s goal is clear, that is, to pass the college entrance examination and receive education in a better university."

　　Angziyu is more motivated. Sometimes, parents will hear him talking in his sleep and solving problems, and Ang Guoyin’s task of reading questions to his son every night is getting harder and harder. Especially in English, he can only pronounce words one letter at a time when he doesn’t know them. Ang Ziyu will also ask the meaning of some words, so Ang Guoyin will look them up in the dictionary, and Ang Ziyu will record the new words in the wrong book.

　　After entering high school, Angziyu finished Grade One in Qingdao School for the Blind, and felt that his study intensity was too low. He returned to Hefei and transferred to Hefei No.6 Middle School to prepare for the college entrance examination.

　　Hefei No.6 Middle School is a provincial key high school, and the study schedule is tight. In the next semester of Senior Three, there will be exams every Monday, 23456. Ang Guoyin goes to accompany the exam every day and is responsible for giving Angzi a metaphor.

　　In the second and third years of high school, "burning the midnight oil" is the daily life of Ang’s father and son. Every night, they study from 6: 30 to 12: 30, and Sunday is no exception. Often, Ang Guoyin has to force his son to rest quickly.

　　"I admire Angziyu very much. His greatest advantage is that he has tenacity, and he has been going on with his goal. I was actually taken away by him. Sometimes, I think, I am very tired, but the child is still insisting, so why don’t I insist? "

　　For more than ten years, Angziyu learned a few points, and Angguoyin stayed with him. "Like him, there is no entertainment, and I feel that the distance with my colleagues and friends has become farther, because I don’t even have time to talk for 20 minutes. But every time I see my child’s grades improve, I am very pleased that there is a name on the school’s red list. "

　　This is the love of parents for their children, right?

　　"I think this is an obligation." Ang Guoyin smiled and said, "Dad’s duty."

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　　Ang Guoyin said that he believes that blind children who have really passed the ordinary college entrance examination are fully capable of adapting to the pressure of study and life in ordinary universities.

　　In 2019, Angziyu took the college entrance examination for the first time and touched the braille college entrance examination paper for the first time.

　　In the preparation stage, he used the same college entrance examination questions and simulated papers as ordinary college entrance examination students. Ang Guoyin tried to ask the education department of Anhui Province for the Braille college entrance examination papers in previous years, but failed to get them. He felt that this was unfair. "There are too few educational resources for this group."

　　According to the regulations, the difficulty of Braille test paper is the same as that of ordinary college entrance examination paper. Because blind candidates touch the answer by hand, their examination time can be extended by 50%, and the admission score is the same as that of ordinary candidates, and they do not enjoy extra points and other care.

　　"I found that the Braille college entrance examination paper is very different from what I imagined. It is printed on one side and strung together with lines. There are many sheets of paper in one door, and some subjects can have more than 30 pages, like a book larger than A4 paper." Angziyu said that the structure of the test paper was also different from the one he used every day, which disrupted his answering rhythm.

　　After the results come out, Angziyu’s score is 55 points higher than that of the first line of science in Anhui Province, and his daily model test score is usually 100 points higher.

　　Ang Guoyin offered him a volunteer and received the acceptance notice. Ang Zi Yu didn’t open the envelope for a week.

　　He decided to repeat the study and said to his parents who were still undecided, "Don’t worry, I won’t go backwards for another year."

　　Ang Guoyin fought with his son for another year. The latest item in his WeChat circle of friends was a link to an English mock exam forwarded in the early morning of January 18th this year, which he wanted to transfer to Angziyu, whose online name was "Reading Everyday", and the result was sent to the circle of friends by mistake.

　　Under the pressure of re-reading, Angziyu’s mentality is always very good. Angguoyin secretly suspects that his son is strong inside, or he has not yet realized his sadness along the way.

　　On July 7, Angziyu once again walked into the college entrance examination room. Ang Guoyin also came to the examination room as a sending teacher in his school. He sat in the teacher’s lounge, nervous. Where did his son do it? Could you have missed any question? Is it possible that you can’t do any problems? So nervous until the end of the college entrance examination.

　　On July 23, when Ang Guoyin found his son’s score, Ang Ziyu hugged his mother and cried aloud.

　　"I’m not worried about him now." Ang Guoyin said that he believes that the blind children who have really passed the ordinary college entrance examination are fully capable of adapting to the pressure of study and life in ordinary universities. "Apart from just going to suffer some crimes, he should not have much problem in the university and will come to work. It will not be bad. As for where he can go, it’s up to him. He is very simple, but sometimes he is very mature. I believe he will set new goals for himself. For example, he said that he will register for the CET-4 this year soon. After passing CET-4, he will take CET-6. "

　　Now, Ang Guoyin is much relieved. He took the initiative to call his old classmates and colleagues and said that we should get together when we are free. Less than 50 years old, his hair has turned a lot white. A while ago, the students who graduated last year came back to see him and sighed as soon as they met: "Teacher, you have more white hair."

　　A blind child wants to have a broader future.

　　"People don’t know much about us, not only because society pays less attention to us, but also because of our own reasons. We should take the initiative to go out of the house and enter the society. "

　　Angziyu said that he wants to be a math teacher in a special education school in the future.

　　This is not so much what he really wants to do in his heart, but rather what he wants to do for the time being from the feasibility of learning from the experience of blind seniors and sisters.

　　When studying in Qingdao School for the Blind, teachers will analyze the future living conditions of their group and which jobs are suitable for them in the course of career and life planning.

　　Ang Guoyin remembers that the content of the class made Ang Ziyu, then 15 years old, very shocked, disappointed and unacceptable. Compared with traditional employment directions such as acupuncture and massage, being a teacher at school is considered to be the best goal that blind children can achieve.

　　Angziyu is not unwilling to be a teacher. He is unwilling to be judged in advance as the best and can only do this. He wants to go out of other ways and prove this judgment wrong. "That’s why I especially want to go to Beijing when I volunteer."

　　Seeing a doctor, traveling and participating in activities, Angziyu has been to Beijing many times. He feels that there are relatively perfect barrier-free facilities, the largest Braille library in China, many friends, more resources, opportunities and inclusiveness.

　　Before he resumed his studies last year, he went to Beijing to participate in a summer camp for visually impaired students. "It’s like a city survival challenge. For example, let yourself go to a shopping mall far away to find several stores, and practice crossing the road. How to listen to the direction of the car, whether it’s a red light or a green light … …”

　　Mother Yu Jinfang often encourages her son to "go up" as much as possible. "The higher you go up, the higher the quality of people around you, and the more they will see your strengths and highlights, instead of staring at your shortcomings, laughing and fooling."

　　"Maybe I can have more choices when I go to college in Beijing." An Ziyu said.

　　He is already considering the employment problem and wants to be a special education teacher for the time being, but he also has concerns.

　　In April 2019, Zheng Rongquan, the first blind college student in Zhejiang Province who used Braille papers to take the college entrance examination and was admitted to the university, applied for the position of teacher in Nanjing Blind School, and scored first in the examination, but his eyesight failed to meet the medical examination standards of civil servants, and his medical examination failed.

　　A few months later, when Wang Xiangjun, the first blind college student in Anhui Province who passed the college entrance examination, applied for the position of music teacher in a special education school in Hefei, he was also told that he could only be a substitute teacher at most because of his poor eyesight.

　　"This is very strange." Angziyu said, "It is completely feasible for us to be teachers in blind schools, and we will understand students better than ordinary teachers and provide them with tailor-made methods."

　　There are always so many challenges for blind students, including the college entrance examination that Angziyu has just successfully passed. "Blind candidates want to compete with ordinary candidates and get more choices by virtue of the college entrance examination. The first problem they encounter is that the teaching materials in Braille are too scarce, and no blind school can provide workbooks for ordinary college entrance examinations. Then, the single-recruit single-test and the general college entrance examination can only choose one from two, which makes it difficult for many candidates to have the courage to choose the latter. " Angziyu said that this is not to mention that his parents are teachers, and there is no need to find someone at home to make up lessons and read questions for him.

　　In any case, Angziyu has summed up many sets of "methodologies" to meet the challenges, and he is confident that he will go on the road to study better — —

　　Get along with your classmates. "You need to prove yourself constantly. You must not be a weak person in their hearts. You must not need their help in all aspects. You must help them in some aspects."

　　When encountering a problem, "if you have a goal, you must stick to it firmly. You will encounter many problems in the process. You can’t generalize them. You should make the problems specific, such as my poor English, to be specific about grammar or what part is not good, and then solve them pertinently. Many people find the problem difficult to solve because they don’t know what the problem is. "

　　Encountered with the misunderstanding of the blind, "people don’t know much about us, not only because the society pays less attention to us, but also because of our own reasons." We should take the initiative to go out of the house and enter the society. For example, some subway workers have not been trained in blind guidance. If we go out more, will they accumulate more experience and do better? "

　　He is ready for the next stage of his journey.

　　After arriving in Kunming on July 28th, Angziyu told his father about his willingness to volunteer. In the first batch, he wanted to apply to the Central University for Nationalities and China Agricultural University, and his first major was mathematics. From 2014 to today, it has been seven years since the blind man took the college entrance examination. He feels that as long as his score is enough, he will not be rejected by the school because of his vision.

　　"I think his idea is still a little simple, even ignorant." Ang Guoyin said that before filling in the first batch of volunteers on August 2, he wanted to introduce his son’s situation to the admissions office teachers of these two universities and ask if some majors did not accept students like him. Every 10 minutes, he calls the Admissions Office, but he never gets through.

　　In the next few days, Angziyu and his companions plan to take the route of Lijiang in Dali, Kunming, and they will also climb Yulong Snow Mountain. "Climbing to the mountain will give us a special feeling, as Du Fu said ‘ Once climbing to the top of the peek, one would see, the other mountains all appear dwarfs under the sky. ’ It’s not just a visual feeling, just like closing your eyes, you will also have a lot of imagination. "

　　Ang Guoyin’s plan is to continue to call the Admissions Office. "This kind of thing can’t be in case. If you are pushed down, you will never have a chance to make up for it. I am particularly worried about this."